Thursday, July 31, 2008

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now



We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

i just learnt this song..
thank u sofia for the chords!!!
you're the reason i managed to learn this song haha..
weee~

Monday, July 28, 2008

I think i've become a fan of Meg & Dia..
i wish they had an album with their acoustic versions though. they're much nicer..
and i've just learnt their song, setting up sunday..

i woke up at ^am today again (supposed to wake at 5.30am)
then i rushed n left house..
but i was still early for sch la haha..
reached about 7?
xD

I am tired.

lets all 'cultivate' our eye bags together..

[i do remind myself that its my own fault i sleep so late. Cuz i never do the work in the afternoons and i leave it till night, when i can concentrate n nothing distracts me..]

Saturday, July 26, 2008

went swimming at bayshore today!!
i think i like this swimming pool the most..
deepest part is 2m..
can swim all e way down and stuff..
^^

then E maths tuition (i was late AGAIN)
then chem tuition then YPM..
music min. played a new song that was really nice!
its called God of this city.
love the chorus!!

and then played taboo for cell group,
and lol, one of the word was Kumar..

then Poon n sarah Cheng came over to my house!!
miho was barking like siao..
she probably thinks the stranger i bring home wana kill me or other people in the house.. haha..
she's such a cool guard dog..

then played taught Poon some guitar stuff,
watched some crazy drummer playing like, mad..
like, he was pro till u need another word to describe his skill..

okay then walked Cheng to Kembangan mrt (actually, she cycled, me n Poon walked..)
then Poon forgot her jacket, so since she could take 21 from my house Bus stop, walked back to my house, took jacket n went to bus stop..
had to cross expressway haha.
cuz we din wana cross overhead bridge,
but actualluy we still had to for that bus stop =.=

and now im home,
i just had my dinner (bayshore park's mee goreng.. nice.)
and blogging^^

Friday, July 25, 2008

Thursday, July 24, 2008

i guess sometimes people just want something to say..
like the "so, how was your week" and "how've you been?"
i can't say i totally agree that people don't care at all when they say those kinds of stuff,
but i think sometimes its just to break the momentary ice between people.
maybe to give the other the message that mayybe u do care about stuff happening in his/her life.
i know i ask and actually don't really care about the answer, and i think i do it because theres nothing else to say.

so, i usually try to see what i have a tendency to do and assume that most other people do it as well.
because i'm like most other people, and most other people are like me.

thats me for you.

gosh i wish there weren't 'awkward silences' between people. that we could all just stay quiet in a room till u could literally hear a pin drop and not feel weird about the silence. that you could face another person, not talk, and still feel comfortable.
to quote a line from 'Tuesdays with morrie', "why are we embarrassed by silence?"


but sometimes people can be such fakes.. trying to find out about another person on the pretext that you're 'concerned' about him/her. i wonder what people find so appealing about others' misfortunes/secrets and stuff. its so weird, and i'm sorry to say that even i can be like that sometimes. its a totally not right thing to do. not to mention a stupid thing as well..

and people know that, but they still do it.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Sunday, July 20, 2008

i have to go to sch at 7.30am on wednesday..
usual time sch starts is 9.

oh well. i dont mind.

Friday, July 18, 2008

yayes i managed to find this really cool blog skin..
took super long to get one that suited my blog though..
and then the editting was easy enough..

today sch had a "mass eating" thing for racial harmony..
we had to eat this malay food thing with our hands..
haha..
felt weird, but the food was nice, and super filling!!!

after sch i decided to look for the DM to get my council badge back.
for those who dont know the story, here goes:

i was late on wednesday, 15 july by 5 mins, cuz i sorta left house a bit late, and the bus took a while to reach, and the bus driver was driving like.. =.=.. slow..

so, late by 5 mins i got to the school gate where the DM was waiting. the group of us latecomers were made to stand in front of him and student leaders were told to take their [student leader] badges off. and obviously i was one of them.

okay so i sorta understand that i should have been more responsible as a student leader, yada yada, but this was actually the first time ever, in my whole time in the school that i have ever been late.

and only by 5 mins. and my badge was taken.

so, i started thinking about the unreasonable-ness of the whole thing, and i just imagined that if i were to go up to the DM and say

"Mr DM, i think i am quite right in saying that even you have been late before, and i pretty sure that you had no intention of doing so. but because of unforseen circumstances, you were delayed in getting to your destination in time. i hope that you would try to understand that i could not help the fact that i was already on the bus and was going to be late. this is the first ever time i have ever been late, and whats more, only by 5 mins. i therefore do not understand why you have to punish me as if i did something that put the school's name to shame."

wow, i would so totally get killed, even if i said it in the politest form of speech..

so later i was reading the papers and came across this article about singapore ticking off this british writer who said that singapore is practicing a modern, undemocratic form of authoritarianism.

the singapore high commissioner in london rejected this view, saying that "those who disagree with or oppose the government are free to speak out, challenge the government, and contest in free and fair elections."

i dont know if u see the irony in this.

also, wasnt mr brown banned from writting for newspapers because he said something bad about the government?

and so i conclude that SINGAPORE IS, IN FACT, A PLACE THAT PRACTICES THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

so anyway,

i went to the dm to get my badge.
waited for him outside the room (where he was scolding 3 other guys)
for about an hour? he wasnt aware la, cuz he din see me..

then i went in and he made me write a letter saying that the next time i come late, my badge will be suspended forever.

right.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

today i suddenly felt like i wanted to go swim sometime soon..
maybe i'll go next week thursday.

today i feel so kinda lethargic..
i went to a small pasar malam and ate the small round green tapioca thing which made me feel worse.
then i went n bought takoyaki which was very cooked n sorta hard on the outside and all mashy on the inside.
and thats it, i'm not buying takoyaki from pasar malam aunties anymore.

today in council we welcomed the new sec ones.
cherlyn told me she felt so left out..
poor cherlyn..
eh dun forget you're like, doing the latecomers' duty thing leh!
its not like you have completely nothing to do in council anymore..
so cheer up!!
u still got junsheng n me!!!
and timothy and all the other crazy councillors who'll always remember you..
dun think about it so much ya??
^^

Monday, July 14, 2008

i was listening to 98.7fm on the bus home..
looks like they have a new show, called "the serious world"..
dunno how they work, but they're usually calling ppl (or maybe there r ppl calling them) and (i guess for today's topic,) asking the people "which part of your body is the ugliest?"
and people give their answer and stuff, but the 2 djs were sort of.. mean.. in a way..
i dunno how to explain the impression they give me..

okay anyway.

i plan to go jogging around sometimes soon but i can never bring myself to do it..
argh.
so heavy(to be politically correct) liao >_<.

ohoh!!
i just rmbered this really funny thing that happened in english class today!!
the teacher handed out a handout xD
and there was like a sort of singlish conversation going on, and we were supposed to write down the sentences in proper english.. so the singlish parts went like this:

1. want to eat lunch ornot? (want!)

2. go where? (see they all say what..)

2. what for go B road so far? (where got far? take car not far.)

3. B road eat what? (i really don;t know what a road eats.. i'll google it)

4. john, today got drive car? (got..)

5. i follow you can? (can say cannot?)

the one in bold..
cherlyn read it to me, then i read it to myself, then me n cherlyn just kept laughing, and i laughed till i cried, and oh my gosh it was super funny la..
i really dunno what a road eats.. x.x

orh then later before remedial some classmates were playing arnd n one of them was screaming n stuff, and then this really angry [female] teacher came in n went like, "ARE YOU ALL CRAZY?!!" (she's a chinese teacher.. quite old liao) and she asked the student leaders to stand [and i was innocently doing my geog homework] and she scolded a bit and told all of us to write a letter to her abt what happened n whatevers..
then she walked out of the classroom and i went "huh i dun even noe what happened how to tell her?"

Sunday, July 13, 2008

yesterday was such a packed day!

10am (well i was supposed to be at church at 10 but i reacher 10.45) was children min rehearsal, i'll be playing guitar for their p&w

till 1, then went to da pao lunch n buy polaroid film n battery..

then went back to church, ate and started lightings rehearsal for high praise

took a pic of POON and sabrina (the photo is her bdae present)

erm then from 5 had cell group, i played guitar for them but screwed it a bit.. >_<

then 6.15 had packed cai fan and 6.30 went to do high praise lights!

and it was pretty nice for some songs but i screwed some other songs..

and the last two songs were just crazy..

we had so much fun going crazy with the lights, thanks to ee fu!! wee~!

he was like, just randomle pressing the lights and he told me and poon to do it,
and he went to the spot light and swung it around the chapel below us..

crazily fun~! xD

yup then after high praise took pic of poon, tiew and sabrina..

then poon n i walked to bus stop but decided to take cab cuz there was gonna be 30c surcharge from 17th july (right?).. haha..

poon: eh why ur lau gong (my guitar) got flower?
me(thinking she was referring to the stitch kechain on my guitar): its not a flower, its a stitch!!
poon: no! why got flower on ur guitar?!
me: since when my guitar got flower one??
poon(takes flower off)
me: eh!? how come my guitar got flower one?!

lols..

i gave it to my mom later on..
and the person who put it there just had nothing better to do..

then i was s'posed to continue on ss notes when i came back but was too tired, so i went to sleep..

Thursday, July 10, 2008

airport to send my cell group leader off..
i told him ytd,
i aspire to be a guitarist like u!!
and haha, he was like, "yeh! aspire!"
lols..

reached kembangan mrt at 10.45, mom told me to take cab home (its only about 8-10 mins walk home) but i said "siao ah.. cab so ex!! nvm i'll walk.."
but u noe, the route home is seriously dark, so i called a friend and asked where he was.
"airport"
"you wan me walk you home?"
"lol too bad i at airport, HAHA."

and so i was like, whaaaat the heck..
din have to say until liddat.
okay, i'll walk home.

then i passed by this house-under-construction and heard indian music blasting from inside..
weird/creepy. cuz the music was kinda.. erm.. nvm..

then ya, i got home and showered and did maths..
and i managed to do leh!!
like, YAY!!

ytd was a nice nite (only referring to the studying part)
cuz i actually solved the stuff..
thanks to YUNHUI!!
yay thank you for the help!!
=D

Sunday, July 6, 2008

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine,
you make me happy,
when skies are grey.
you never know dear, how much i love you
please don't take my sunshine away..

i'm sad.

but tomoro's youth day so we can go out..

i hadn't realized how i am clueless as to how i'm gonna live life without my sunshine..

and no, i'm not talking about a bf.
idonthaveone

Thursday, July 3, 2008

urgh okay i didnt study at all since i came back home.
gonna mug when evryone else is asleep again.
i think i got a bit of panda eyes liao lors.
bad habit luh, but i cant concentrate when mugging in the day..

and i'm being bitten by mosquitos!!
a lot of mosquito bites!
itchyy!!!
raaarrrr!!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

i can choose to be happy all day,
every day,
every minute,
but i think a part of me doesnt want to.


omg... i am seriously disturbed by the video of that china fur traders skinning the animal..
ALIVE!!
like wth la!!
it was sent in an email andd i watched it!
thinking it was gona be some documentary-like thing.
and no...

they hung the poor half-dead raccoon-looking thing and it was struggling.
and the guy just started skinning it..
and he worked from top (the tail. he hung the animal upside down)
to head.
and he peeled the skin off..
while the animal was alive.
and while the skin was half off the animal started struggling again.
i was like "omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg"
i htink i seriously want those hypnosis treatment where those ppl can tell ur brain what to do.
i wana forget i ever watched that.

okay so the skin is off.
the animal is still alive.
and raw.
and alive
WITH ITS SKIN OFF.

eh thank GOD I DIDNT ON THE SOUND.
cannot take it sia...

the images just keep running through my head.
but i'm not a puker.
so i dont puke.
i just feeel bloody sick.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

frustrating..
that i can't do such a simple question without help..
that i never seem to be able to get a question right on my own..
its unbearable.