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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
The time was 9:46 PM
i get so tired when its nearing the end of the school day..
and the heat and humidity just makes everything worse. then in the bus i sit down and like, wana die.. lol. i've still got a mountain of untouched A maths homework (tuition and school), lots of tests to study for, and lots of things to revise for the mid years. guh. meanwhile i can't really learn much bossa nova, cuz i have to do WORK, so i only practice what i already know. ='( listening to olivia ong again. ^^
Sunday, March 29, 2009
The time was 10:51 PM
 muahahahahhahaa~ okay haha. today had bible study group outing, but not many people could make it =/ played one game (super ex la! $4.30 per game per person leh!) then decided to go watch people waste money on the claw machine where u try grabbing toys.. got me to you bear one leh!! i want!!! >_< then bought shorts from this fashin for $9 ^^, and i shirt i couldnt fit into =.= yup. bro tells me to memorise chords for bossa nova. so its like learning how to play the guitar all over again, cuz the chords are mostly all different.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
The time was 11:19 PM
i'm really gonna try n pick up bossa nova..
i LOVE the rythm! so nice~~ but the videos are so craazily fast! >_<
Thursday, March 26, 2009
The time was 5:36 PM
school's a bit tiring cuz of the idiotic weather.. so humid and hot! =.= yeah so ytd this was what i saw when i came back from the canteen. ^^.  E maths: teacher asked rina to do the qn, then she wrote that, and then the teacher drew the angel.. lol!  physics: teacher was revising forces, then he drew this of himself xD 
Sunday, March 22, 2009
The time was 9:06 PM
everything would be so different if we had tangible evidence to support our faith,
but what would faith be for if there was tangible evidence? anyway, i've realized that the few things i'm clinging on to, they won't work out. as much as i wish it would. so, its okay i guess (actually its not..) i'll, try to.. move on? and start studying.. i'm just tired.. of all this emotions that're weighing me down. Linkin park - somewhere i belong (when this began) I had nothing to say and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me (i was confused) and i let it all out to find, that i'm not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me) but all that they can see, the words revealed is the only real thing that i got left to feel (nothing to lose) just stuck hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own i wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real i wanna let go of the pain i've felt so long. erase all the pain till its gone i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real. i wanna find something i've wanted all along somewhere i belong and i got nothing to say. i cant believe i didn't fall right down on my face (i was confused) lookin everywhere only to find. thats its not the way i had imagined it all in my mind. (so what am i) what do i have but negativity cuz i cant justify the way everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose) nothing to gain, hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own I will never know myself until i do this on my own and i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed i will never be anything till i break away from me i will break away. i'll find myself today .
Saturday, March 21, 2009
The time was 10:08 PM
mood swings are so idiotic.
they make you feel like shit. grrr... today i woke up at 1 i think.. haha. and it was so hot.. =_= then met poon, went to bugis to collect phone, then bus-ed to church, blah blah. erm. then dinner with cell grp ^^ ate 3 paos for $2 cuz that was all the money i had left, and i wasn't starving anyway.. then went back to church to meet poon again.. yeah. then bus-ed back home in a 15 with poons, and dropped two stops after my house (by accident) and walked home. what a day. The time was 12:50 AM
so tired!
went to ikea with weng n xinyi, looked at tables cuz weng wanted one for his room. then he dropped me at ecp for class bbq thing, ^^ which is exactly the same pit as when yunhui celebrated her bdae. outside national sailing club, area G. pit 77 la.. okay so i got there about 6+, and decided to help cooking at abt, erm.. 7+? so i stood until 9.30+.. then i decided to WALK home. yeah. walk walk walk walk walk, bought coconut juice for $1 at the. food place at the lagoon.. and walk walk walk some more.. haha. so i started walking at 9.40, reach home at 12am.. 2 hours n 20 mins of walking! after a few hours of standing! goodness!
Friday, March 20, 2009
The time was 3:19 AM
I DON'T KNOW.
SHALYN DOESN'T KNOW. THIS IS INSANE. I'M LIKE, GOING CRAZY. urgh.. you read tintin comics right? imagine mr thomson, who just fell and hit his head, and there r like, the stars flying around him.. yeah, thats like, me..
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
The time was 9:50 PM
i really wonder,
looking at myself, what really goes on deep down in people's hearts. under the smiles, under the small little shows of sadness that i sometimes see. how much chaos is raging in the one small organ called the heart. i wonder if everyone really has lots of raw emotions running around inside, and i wonder if the people i see everyday are actually silently crying out. i wonder what it'd be like if everyone could express their fears, their regrets, all their feelings about something. but thats impossible right? after whole lifetimes spent trying to fit in and trying to make sure people don't think you're idiotic or anything. The time was 5:19 PM
my study life is so dysfunctional =_=
12.20pm - came back from sch n ate lunch 1.20pm - sat down and started work.. 1.30pm - got kind sleepy after doing some e lesarning stuff, n checking wat hmwk i have. 1.35pm - put my head on the table n SLEPT. 3.09pm - started looking for articles on straitstimes.com for english hmwk. now - still doing my first mind map for english. argh.
Monday, March 16, 2009
The time was 10:53 PM
did the disc profiling thing today during student leader's convention..
yayes~ i wanted to see if i've changed.. and my results did la.. from being an sc in pri school i think, to cs in sec 2 or something.. my results today was: i'm a high C. and C people tend to be analytical, calculative, cynical, and emotional.. their greatest fear is criticism.. BUT i think i'm still a CS coz i have quite a bit of S personality in me too. and S's greatest fear is conflict. yeap. thats about all i can remember.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
The time was 11:35 PM
i wrote this, yeah.people full of angst. full of emotions that can't be expressed. different lives, different things we don't let out. we wanna know why others are down, to leave our own problems behind. hoping maybe being able to help others would make us feel better. feel more in control. you won't understand why what i'm facing affects me that much, just like how i won't understand why what you're facing affects you that much. if i asked you if u've been through what i have, you'd say no. and if you asked me the same thing, i'd say no as well. but there is one other thing, one other reason why i wanna know whats getting you down. that is, seeing you in so much pain, it makes me hurt as well. being so helpless while you go through all that agony alone in your heart, having nothing to say to make it better. all you can do for me, and all i'm asking, is for you to give me just a little bit of your burden to share. i'd gladly help you carry that weight. yeah, maybe wanting to help is for selfish reasons, so i won't feel so helpless, so i won't have to wallow in my own world of misery, but if i asked you why you wanted to know my problems, what would your answer be? The time was 9:28 PM
i seriously felt like punching something today,so full of angsty emotions that can't be expressed. yeap. today i went to ikea for lunch with poon! and the place was scarily crowded. lesson learnt today: don't go to ikea on a sunday. and then the queue for the food so long, and there was a short circuit in the place.. they couldn't fry the chicken wings lol! but after a while it was okay. then we both got 10 meatballs for $5, and a lot of other stuff la.. i was so full after that. i'll be quite sick of ikea food for a while now.. haha. heres acoustic version of 'how to save a life' by the fray. The time was 12:03 AM
 "Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of the earth, will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace."
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The time was 12:32 AM
went dress shopping with cherlyn and huilian today!
went to tangs first cuz there was supposed to be really cheap dresses there.. but they got sold out! so sad.. so we went to far east, walked rounds, bought earrings, tried dresses.. and after cherlyn left me n huilian met sihui n ate subway.. then i went off by myself to buy the belt thing, and bought a casual halter dress for $27.90 (which is quite a good price, for a dress..) haha yeah.. tmr my mom bringing me to look at more dresses for the wedding.. dont think i'll buy any though.. no money liao! >_<
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
The time was 10:39 PM
 i've realized that many people pretty close to my heart are leaving or have left.. first alicia, now my bro, then my daddy'll be moving out. i'm sad.. today me, two bros and my dad went to have dinner to celebrate dad's bdae and as a farewell dinner for korkor jem.. just ordered chilli crab and 'beijing ya'. then desert was so cool, they put the mango pudding on top of this cup with dry ice. and there was smoke coming out form underneath the mango pudding. nice effect~ yeap, and korkor jem had his hair cut.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The time was 7:54 PM
ahaha i still feel like shit sometimes.
i'm sad that my bro's gonna enlist into navy on thursday! i'll only be seeing him once a week now =/ and there'll be no more gigs ='( then i'll be using his room to study.. and i'm planning to like, lock myself in there after school to study study study study.. because there'll be nothing else to do anymore i guess. then my oldest bro going to taiwan for army for like 2-3 months. and i gotta cut down on the time spent on playing guitar man.. haha. today's daddy's birthday but i dunno what to get him.. i haven't wished him happy birthday yet too, i think he thinks i've forgotten and i feel so bad now! but i dunno what to do.. i'm like, in the process of writting something like a letter now. its so hard to get presents for ur dad. especially when you don't have money to spend. i'm seriously like, broke now.. my mom has 6k left in her bank and dunno how thats gonna last. so yeah. she didnt give me the allowance for this week cuz she had to draw money from bank first. haha so i'm TRYING to not spend so much on food! >_< don't laugh, cherlyn. hehe!
Monday, March 9, 2009
The time was 6:33 PM
is it just a phase or something?
coz i think i'm having some major self esteem issues now.. or more like, there are a few particular people who i feel are so much better than me. guh. don't know la. i don't know myself. anyway this song was intro-ed to me. ^^
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The time was 11:14 PM
will i ever be able to play like that!?! its crazily fast! *dies* ah but i think i'm starting to like bossanova.. its real nice ^^ cuz of olivia ong haha. i already like listening to jazz drummers a lot though. they're real cool. The time was 6:44 PM
haha today's E maths class was hilarious!
i laughed till i teared..! lol, er, ya.. we thought this guy in the class had an.. erm.. erection, then the E maths teacher went,"eh, aren't you a bit old to be having unexplained erections?" LOL. so the class cooled down a bit after laughing so hard, and then the teacher was staring at the guy, then the guy put his hand in his pants or something! and the teacher was like,"EH THERES A LADY SITTINGBESIDE YOU LEH!" ROFL. it turned out the guy had put his small bottle of deodorant in his pants. omgoodness damn funny la! xD
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
The time was 8:57 PM
i don't know why but i always seem to be feeling tired nowadays.
now one side of my head seems to be aching. like a migraine or something but thats not exactly it.. must be cuz of pe. haha. feels like the week's been kinda slow yet fast at the same time. oh and its been like a week full of tests so far. coming soon are chem qualitative analysis test, physics test, english compre common test.. and i just remembered i have A maths homework to do thats due tmr. i haven't done any work so far, mostly just blogging and facebook-ing and guitar-ing. sigh. heey gosh i seem to have no life anymore!!! all i can think of to talk about is studies leh! and the occasional 'guitar' or 'outing' word in my blog entries. argh! I CAN'T WAIT TO FINISH OS. and at the same time i wish there was more time to slack. i'm lazy to start studying. so i think i'd better start going to the library again. =/
Monday, March 2, 2009
The time was 9:17 PM
felt so tired today..
maybe its the weather, but i felt like i really didn't want to go on doing this anymore. 'this' as in, stressing myself out about Os. really really tired.. i complained to cherlyn, haha. and its not the studying thats killing me. its that i know i need to study but i never seem to get down to doing it. and then its always on my mind, that i need to study, i neeed to study. how many more months till mid years? till Os? and still i haven't even started revising. guh, this is tiring shit man. but i guess giving up is harder than it seems, haha. everything around me is pushing me, so i can't stop. wish there was another dimension i could go to, where theres no one else, and a year there would be a second here. then i could hide there until i got sick of it, and come back to do something more meaningful with my life. like, STUDY FOR MY OS and get that 6 POINTS for L1R2B2 so i can get into PSYCHOLOGY in TP which has a cop of 8 POINTS. x_x but yeah, i remember that i've asked God to get me into that course, with my points at six. so, "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." all i have to do is have faith. so i'll hold on to that faith. ah, jia you to me luh. =_=||| got chem test tmr, physics test on thurs, english compre test on friday. oh and there are a lot of reaaaly nice black and white photos here if u wana see. i just remembered that photography depends a lot on luck. haha go look at the pics! The time was 12:06 AM
statistics really pissed me off..
stupid textbook didnt help me understand the thing at all. =_=||| didnt study until after i reached home, which was after dinner. plus, i played a bit of guitar. argh. i need to start studying man. sigh. i was in quite a bad mood today. many things getting on my nerves. one of the 'many things' is myself. |
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